Things that I will forever be good at:

Defending you &;
Coming up with new excuses for you.

I have been doubting our relationship quite a lot lately. I wonder what makes you think that it's okay to take me and my kindness for granted.  I am slowly getting tired of this; the amount of patience and feelings that I used to have for you is depreciating day by day. I still post pictures of us on Facebook and tweet about you, fooling myself and everyone else to believe that I still give a good amount of shit about our relationship. But deep down I know it is not true. So do people who know me.

The bottleneck

I understand that now we are in a relationship, you don't feel the need to try as much as you used to. But is it that difficult for you to remember my schedule?  To not call me while I am in class because you are bored on the bus? You say I mean a lot to you but why can't you live up to your words with actions?

My weekend getaway

 

Spent a weekend with my boyfriend at Niagara Falls for the Lambda Phi Epsilon Formal. Other than the fact  won the Pimp Of The Year award, it was a really fun weekend. Everyone was so welcoming and friendly. I was glad to find out more about what has my boyfriend been involved in for more than one and half year.
As an outsider, I could definitely see the passion and the brotherhood within them. I was never really against any fraternity or sorority groups, but I used to not give a rat crap. Especially when Ray told me he had to attend those lambda events as opposed to spending time with me. Now I am definitely more supportive. It's adorable to see how they have been passing down the traditions. I am more than happy to be a lambda lady.

 

Our brunch at the iHop aka the fake Denny's; it was definitely overpriced but I enjoyed it. haha 

The Busy Bee

In the last two weeks or so, I have been packing my schedule with long work hours, school and gym. It is hard to have a life somewhere in between. I honestly no longer remember how does it feel to be "loafty", to have time to watch YouTube, and to stalk people on Facebook and Instagram, etc. My biggest fear is that I might have neglected other obligations, i.e. friends, family and my boyfriend in favour of my tight schedule. I guess when you have a busy schedule, the only way to deal with it is to sacrifice some self-time. My new definition of the "Me-time" is quality time with my boyfriend and friends.

On the brighter side, I am proud of myself for not spending my parents' money, and for being more independent as a daughter. My ultimate wish is to give back to them, and I know I am getting closer and closer.

P.S. I am extremely excited for Niagara this weekend with my boyfriend (along with his 100+ fraternity brothers). It is going to be our first road trip together!